Some days your looking takes you into past stories, events or just making certain you are able to enter the freeway safely. So what is it you see when you are looking? Are you seeing what is all around you at any given moment or is what you are seeing, as you look around, filtered by moments that deeply touched you in your life. And are you aware of when these times of multiplicity are with you? A very dear woman I know and love, is in the process of dying. I realized that all I am looking at, since receiving the news of her inevitable passing has changed my seeing. I am seeing all that is around me with increased newness and awe. My hello's and goodbyes have a different tone and sensibility. Even the colors of things seem fresher and more alive. I am someone who always appreciates looking and really seeing what is actually around me whether I am sighting a Bald Eagle or a dilapidated building. There is a wealth of story in everything. My stories change when I am close to death. I can feel a part of me withdraw internally. And yet my senses seem to heighten. The presence of immortality, death enters the room as it had during conception, implantation, birth and other events in our lives. So no wonder when we are brought close to this events our looking and seeing change. We have survived and are grateful to be with every living portion of life. Still there is this sadness that permeates inside and out of you every now and then. And, oh yea, it's time to get on with things in my day. Better snap out of the filters and see what I am looking at in this moment. PINK SHOES. I see them clearly now.
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